My Confession

I feel a little bit like a fraud today because although i refused crack yesterday i did not actually want to smoke. It feels like something has been removed from my mind or my heart because its not like i want crack but am being brave by saying no, my body or mind has lost that “wanting” I feel completely different inside. It is strange but true and it feels great. So i am not a warrior fighting an urge, the urge has gone, for now hopefully forever. Well i did change my payday to monthly in the hope of breaking the cycle so maybe that is what happened, i am not sure. My faith could also have something to do with it, wow as i am typing i have never been able to type so fast like i am possessed or something